29 NOV. Is a Long Long Journey

is you i miss.
i dun miss anyone
BUT youuu. YOu... You...

I MISS HIM
I MISS BABY
I MISS YOU

HAPPY 6 MONTHS BABY,
i love you forever. and ever.
no one can ever change my LOVE for you.
you are the only guy that is store in my heart already,
i really nv regret knowing you...
you jus the guy im looking for,
we quarrel alot, i agree,
but we managed to come this far,
dun let it gone to waste.
we were made for each others.
i believed that...
lets work hard together okie?
I LOVE YOU!!!

dun ask why..

Dear Heavenly Father,

i pray to you as a child of GOD,
that you will keep him and family,
calm and strong, as they go through this few days or months.

i pray that you will protect them from and harm,
and let them know that their ah gong has gone peacefully.

i pray that you will guide them,
and lead them to where ever you wan them to go.

i pray for this person, that you will strengthen him
in every thing him do for this five days.

In Jesus Name i Pray, AMEN

USUAL

went to church in the morning, preparing doin KIDS CHURCH,

as our cell AAT is doin for this end of the month,

baby couldnt make it cuz he got driving test.

so yup. then after church stay back for a while and help doing the GB shoes.

my church GB is doin a fund raising, so to help,

this is wad i can do, yup. is my pleasure,

cuz i love drawing...

show you the design i draw,

NICE????

didnt know that i was that GOOD.... wahahahhahax (,")

show you another design & is my BOYFRIEND draw

& is for me.. cute rite,

BABY thank for helping me draw, even is ur first time

i like it, is cute. but can improve more... hehehx..

is not bad for the first time le.

yup. then after that went to do project then went to baby home,

around 8pm, baby went to play soccer,

i 8.30 then went down and pei him.

hehehx. go watch the guys playing soccer.

is fun but sometime ur irrtating contact lens jus make you sleepy.

hahahahax..

yup, after that, baby send me home...

HAPPY BUT WORK SUCKS

guess wad?
got back my first test paper, my heart was pumping hard,
thinking, did i made it??
it was scary wen teacher called out my name,
i went to get the paper and to my shocked,

I PASSED!!!!

oh man, at that moment i was totally happy that i pass,
jus passed, 55 marks
and i went through the paper, acutally, i can get more marks,
but it was all careless mistake,
example;

" Given f = 88 MHz
c = wavelength / Frequecy
c = 3x108 m/s

i put : wavelength = c/f
= 3x108 /88
= 34090909.09Hz

where else, the answer should be :
wavelength = c/f
= 3x108 /88x106
= 3.409090909 Hz

SEE.. i lost 2 marks like that.
haiz. i must change, if not how to get to poly??.
change and remember formular.

after school, i went to work le.
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BUT today work sucks. work from 3pm to 12am.
at the beginning of work,
everything was not fine,
after a long break, i kind of forgot stuff,
i panic, forgot step and stuff and after 7pm,

i became restless, & my contact lens making it worst.
manager scolded me, is like keep on finding manager,
and it wasnt my fault, "parton wanted to change tickets,"
not i wan, "parton give the wrong info," is not i wanted also.

but i jus carry on working and working,
trying not to forget stuff and doing everything correct.
almost the end of work, "parton buy 5 tickets, paying by credit card,"
i wanted to press "mixed payment",
end up, i missed it and i press "refund", wth.
i was like totally in no mood already.

wen packing up, counting money,
"i didnt write properly, didnt know wad happen to me, i think is because,
im eager to go home," i passed everything to manager,
i go change, and then manager wan to see me,
i was OK, confirm got something wrong.
i went back, manager so call scolded me, i did a wrong thing again.
after that wen i can go already, mei lan say, "i told you, confirm will get scolding"
i say, "who cares, let her scold, wad can she do? fired me? go ahead" hahahax.
i alreadi say sorri.

then baby came pick me up, and i was relieved that i finally finished work.
WHAT A DAY.....

OH NO.

my TESt, i think i did very badly,
ArGH!!! i know how to do but i forgot the fomular.
how stupid im.
all careless mistake.
is like so damn stress.

like you got study remember the fomular and all that.
but wen you see the question paper,
is like, OH NO. ur mind all went blank.
i was pause at that moment.
and thinking hard, how to do,
but all careless mistake..

hmmmm today didnt see baby again.
is been two days.
ahahax miss him.
tmr gonna see him at 12am,
cuz i will be working from 3pm till 12am.
oh my long hrs tmr..

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complained from BB,
that he dun like his this work.
sometime, "manager, you have to think of others feeling",
dun think u are a manager and you are so BIG that you can show off around,
and asking ur staff doin all the job, so wat if manager is BIG.
we are still humans, we do have feeling OKIE.

hmmmm job sometime sucks,
some managers treat you good, some dont.
why are there this kind of managers.

GOD pls turn all those bad managers to good. AMEN
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waiting for baby to be back home!!
hehe editing some picture i took wif my new dress i brought
jus now at westmall. hehehehehx.

1234,2234,3234,4234,5234............

finally today, we have PE. after so long,
PE was always cancel,
but finally today we have PE.

i love PE.
i love Sports.
but i dun know how to show i really like sport,
(imaging a girl who like to sweat.)
i like, i really like.
wahahahx

so after MR Ho lesson,
going through test for tmr,
we went off to PE.
hmmm thats secondary word. "PE"
but for ITE is called "SPORT & WELLNESS"

hahhax. went to the hall
& then started playing badminton,
it was a long time didnt play,
i wan to go gym but no one accompany me,
so nvm.
we were laughing and enjoying ourselves.
very fun.

then after PE we, went CAfe. to have lunch
& CHicken CHop is our lunch.
YUMMY.

and that was wad we did the whole day,
and home is where we go next.
first i reach home,
went for a bath,
on heater alwaes,
but was trun to the lowest,
but it was like so damn hot still.

told my mum to switch off,
and it was a cold bath for me,
damn freaking. nice.......
like wan to stay in the toilet and nv come out
bathing wif cold water.

but i came out not long
until i had enough.

so now im tpying this blog,
going to bed,
and once i wake up,
TIME TO STUDY for test tmr.
hopefully i can pass.

wandering wats baby doin now........??????........????

baby suprised me again,

he called me and i was thinking he was bluffing me,
as he told me his work finish at 10.
but he say he was at the door at around 7pm.
so i went to look, but noone was there,
so i looked the second time, & he came out of the lift.
i was totally surpised. he is damn good of giving suprise.

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but that nite, we quarrel, it was all misunderstanding,

iwas totally a idiot. we almost broke up.
but i didnt wan it to be that way.
we try our best to talk things out,
&suddenly tears came running down my cheeks,
i was thinking, how stupid i was at that moment.
i really was soo soo stupid. baby words make me tthink twice.
i really need English tution. i keep on crying non-stop,
i jus counldnt stop, at that moment, i jus wanted to hug baby tight.
but he wasnt here,

baby told me to stop cryin, if not he will rush down.
i wan but i scare my parents will be mad,
it was late alreadi, so i told baby not to come,
"i will stop crying."

Onli baby can toleraate wif me, no other guys can.
we decided to stop talking about that,
we manage to solve that.
and we change topic about how we met,
& how baby sounded me. it was very interesting and funn.
is like wen suddenly you think back how ur guy sounded you,
you can smile to ur else and wander.

& we make a VOWS that, we will LOVE each other onli and noone else.
we will walk down the red carpet together, solve problem that we had,
toleraate wif each other, nv ever say the word "BREAK UP",
nv ever say the word Change of heart
& WE will. put GOD in the Center Of Our Relationship.
i PROMISE YOU THIS.

DWUWwwww....

IT was FRIDAY,
and is the last day of the weekdays,
and it will be a long holiday,
Saturday, sunday &Monday!!!!

& TOday was a BLAST!!
we had STUDENT COUNCIL TEAM BUILDING,
oh yea, we had fun, is been a long time,
we had fun in SC,
it was the first year back for me and EVON plus FAZLI,
it was kind of weird,
like as in listening to our junior where
they listening to us last year.

BUT it was interesting,
from 2.30 to 7pm.
it was icebreaker game first,
to get to know the grp.
and then some treasure hunt,
and then cheer,
using this five words inside,
HAPPINESS;
FOOD;
SUNSHINES;
DONE
&CONGRATULATION

so this was our cheer,
Happiness is wad we feel,
Food is wad we eat,
Sunshines is the bread of life
&we are not Done................. Yet.
CONGRATULATION to
DYNMIAC!!!

hahahahahahhax...
and then evon and i started doin our tick,
the "MRT GAMES", the "I KNOW I KNOW"..........

"those whu dun noe,
you will learn it soon... take ur time,
i realize it three years ltr.
hahahahhaahhx.."

after that we had captain Ball,
& stupid me,
i cant play as my shoes was lose,
cant run properly.
so didnt run much.

so i went taking photos of them,
wahahahahahx,
"is okie JON, i know how to handle a camera,
i use it before".... hahahhax...

then it was soon 7plus,
and it home sweet home for us,
but before that, we went for dinner.
me, evon, fazli, jon and his friends.

had dinner till like 8.30pm & then went home,
didnt met up wif HOney,
he was working, today, a new job.
he like it,
so im happy.
i love you.
DWUWwwwww............

LONG DAY

this is the second month of school le,
and is on the third week,
is thursday,

the longest lesson day,
it was damn hot,
and the aircon was cold,

make us wanna slp,
my grp there is,

NAS

ME,

HAZRI,

HAFIZ,
(oh nO, we dun have hasrif pic)
HASRIF

& BYRAN. (oopss)

(hasrif is second from the left,
left out hafiz cuz he didnt come)

hahax. alwaes mixed wif them,
dunno why,
they are the first grp i mixed wif,
but HAZRI was from balestier,
so i get to know him first.

hahahahax. yup,
it was fun mixing wif them in class,
making funny things
and the loudest grp there.

the others is the class,
we are cool,
trying to get along,
so can say our class now is kind of close alreadi,
so goody,
"i shall plan a BBQ together.
yea. (: good luck to me,
hopefully is successful......"

so as i was saying,
thursday was the longest period,

we cant alwaes study & study,

it will get through our brain
but it will let it out through the ear,

so we decided to take some photos.
wahahahx.
nth better to do in class and break time.
photos are below.

i LIKE my classmates plus advisor. hahahahx

(ME & HAZRI)

(NAS, HASRIF & BRYAN)

(ME, HAZRI & HASRIF)

(NAS, HASRIF, BYRAN & ME)

(was doind sudoko)

(in class)

OKIE OKIE yup(:

everything is fine now between me &my guy.
come to think,
we usually quarrel and
then slp at 2 in the morning,
and we will be msg each other saying sorry,
and everything was fine after that,
within 1 nite. not bad,
and i cant quarrel wif him for many days also.
cuz i jus cant live w/o him.
so we are fine now,
but cant of weird still.

bb wake mi by calling mi in the morning,
so sweet of him,
to wake up and call me.

it was raining cats and dogs
during in class,
and was freezing,
should have brought my sweater.
but i forgot.
then my lectuer say after class
we can go home cuz have no fitness.
we were like,
wad so early, was only 10 plus.
so after class wen for makan wif my grp and
then went home together.

and reach home, i slept till 5.30pm.
so nice. &now im still sleepy.
goin off le.
bye peeps.

sugarpie thank for asking me how am i,
really appreaciate it.
i love you.

WHAT IS WRONG WIF ME.

why do i alwaes make things worst,
i jus dun understand why,
am i that bad for a gf,
even if you say im not,
to me, i look, im one.

i jus dun get it,
why am i like that,
dun even think before i talk,
do i really wan face,
is face really very important,
i jus dun get it,

m i a person who wan faace,
i dun understand myself,
i dun even know wat im talking,
and he say im in the wrong,
i alwaes see that im alwaes the wrong wan here,
alwaes see that im alwaes the first to start the quarrel.

is it the way i talk,
how can i change,
will i be able to change??
wat should i do.

sometime i dun get it,
i really dont.
i jus dun even know where i went wrong
wen i talk things to him,

&yes, did i alwaes arguing things back,
but to me im jus trying to explain things,
why does he alwaes say im answering him back,
like i got alot things to say back,
but im not,
i jus sometime dun even know how to explain things to him.
im really a bad gf,

isit that why, all my ex bf left me?
i alwaes think so,
come to say,ithink im a very bad gf.
cant i jus let things go smoothly.........
wondering,

how will this relationship last,
if im alwaes trying to make things worst,
im already trying my best,
maybe is not good even still.
maybe im not good in relationship.
maybe i cant take relationship,
maybe i was suppose to be single.
maybe im not mature yet.
maybe.......................

i jus dun even know how or wat to do.
frustrated, stress, down.........

T0 all mother wishing each

&everyone mother,

~HAPPY MOTHER DAY~

Loved

thank you for the loved and cared you given us

to my mum,
even through we quarreled most of the time,
i will still love you cuz you are my mum,
you and i are in the same boat,
we love to talk loud and dun even know that,
that why we will think we are shouting at each other at times,
but you are still my mum.
even if you some time forbin me to do certain things,
you are still my mum.
even if we are not that kind, of like daughter and mother closely,
you are still my mum,
but i wish some day we can be like those mother & daughter,
going shopping together and i can share some girl talk wif you,
but,,, hmmmm....... will it happen?????
jus wondering,.......

but i love you still,
is kind of mushy,
i know.

today, after church, went home str8, baby wasnt free today,
so i stay at home and finish up my work,
Joyce online photoediting picture,
better price then GV,
did all finished. and i was happy,

within two days, i got 82 dollars.
~happy.....

HI peeps,
hahax.. so long didnt update le,
cuz i was away from HOme,
wen chalet on fri to sat nite,

FRI AFTERNOON

after school, BB came pick me and off we go to the chalet,
but it was still too early,
so we went bugis walk walk and then went
to starbuck and had a drink.
at the same time use laptop.

we called ying ying but she wasnt at the chalet yet,
so we take our own sweet time,

"oh ya btw, ying ying and herbaby book the chalet for their ROM!!
woohooo, ying ying getting engagement tmr which is on the 10 may."

so around 4pm we went, then unpack our stuff,
and did our deco, cutting the wording out.
then tmr then paste.

kind of tired cutting the word, hahax.
then after that we had BBQ,
and ying ying's friends, sister and brother
came.
we had fun that nite,
drank some, and then it was about 12am,
baby and i went to slp le.
tired,the rest also went to slp le,
evon they all slept so early......

SAT MORNING
BB and i couldnt wake up,
we were like so so sleepy,
so evon they all brought back food for us.
thankx!!

then it was soon to be afternoon,
ying ying went to do her hair,
and the guys went for a drink.
we girls stay in the chalet and did the deco.

after deco we all get ready for the ROM,
soon hrs pass and it was 5pm,
the ROM started,

it was so so sweet,
wonderful,
CONGRATION to MR WONG & MRS WONG!!!
wish you all the best in everything you do,
and VICTOR take good care of Ur baby!!!
anything wrong we come find you.!!
hehehx
ya!! hahax take Care!!!

tday nth much, went to school,
early in the morning,

couldnt wake up,
was damn tired,
but i force myself to wak eup,
then went to get ready and 7.30am left me house,
saw evon they all downstair from7am till now.

bus was so so crowded,
how do we get on work on time?
or school on time?
"once late, teacher mark attendant ZERO!"
tell teacher the truth,
they say dun wan to hear those nonsense.
wad the hell..

finally got up the bus at 8.05am,
and we start class at 8am,
so reach school at 8.30am plus traffic jam.
aiyo....

then class do cirut all that, then went for break wif my grp,
and then back to class to complete it.
then 12 went to foyer wait for evon they all to makan.

baby came and fetch me,
so wen to fetch him go cafe
there to eat together wif evon they all.

then went home, and slp
till 3pm, then off he send me to work work.

work today was okie,
quite fun, working there in BOX.
today finally, i did everything correct!!
weee, im so so happy.
jus start work ot long ago.
keep on having mistake,
but today was OKIE!

then after work, did closing,
then bb came fetch me home,
i LOVE bb so much,
he is so so important to me!!
he jus leave my house.
waiting for his call wen he reach home,
then i can slp ..

tmr will be another long day.....

today, i got dance at 2.30pm,

but have to be in church by 1.30pm,

as my parent got dialect,

Weather was so HOT!!!

sweating all over.

quickly went in MPH room.

then soon after we started dance,

end around 5.30 - 6pm,

BB was here to pick me up, we going to catch a movie at 9.15 at Grand,

so before that, we went town, we went fareast first,

i brought, three stuff in total.

then went walking around until, we decided to go CINE,

long time not been there,

but CINE was boring,

So we ride over to GREEAT WORLD.

first waiting for BB friends to reach and then have dinner,

it was HOT HOT HOT, im sweating all over.

quickly eat finished,

and went in and watch.....

IRON MAN!!!

nice and best show ever,

the costume was nice...

the show i ranked it at 9/10

should watch!!!

after that we went BT TIMAH for supper,

but before that, BB and his friends

know this place which is very very deserted at BT TIMAH,

the road lead until very far in,

and some part no light,

was dark and scary,

funny thing is that,,

we saw a car there, at a corner.

BB friends and BB horn very loud.

they might be doin ehem, ehem, things inside the car,

hahhahahahx. =P

after the pertoling around, we went supper,

then BB send me home. and he went to find his friends..

NOT FEELING TOO GOOD ):

arite, yesterday i had a bad slp,
i wouldnt slp at night,
wif my stupid running nose and stucking nose.
is irrtating me.

slept still 11.30am,
didnt wan to wake up early as it was a hoilday day today,
but no choice i woke up, cant get back to slp.
but i was dizzy wen i got up,
keep on coughing nonstop.
and it hurt my stomache.

bad day ever.
wen online for awhile, and then back to slp again,
slept still 3pm.

woke up, wen for a bath,
was a hot day,
feel body was damn hot,
check temp, was about 38.0 degree.

then i call baby, wether he is coming,
but he was in his cuzin house,
and he say maybe wont be coming,

at first, i was disspointed,
jus wanted baby at my side wen im sick,
but i jus to think to that,
he stayed too far, and come to think,
didnt really wan to waste BB bike petrol,

so i msged BB not to come le,
but was still sad, but after few hrs wif the holiday show,
i was okay, i guess.

i really miss baby is jus a day,
i cant believe it.
i really miss him,
he is like sooo much to me,
i dun ever wan to lose him,
so contact to him,
I LOVE BABY FOREVER AND EVER.
HE IS THE BEST,
he gave me the secure and safelty ever.